For
me it has been quite difficult to put this web site together.
It is by its nature very narcissistic, which feels wrong.
To compile something that is completely self-centred goes
against my natural instincts; in irony, that statement
in itself portrays an air of self-righteousness.
It
is, however, a necessary process if I am to relay my work
to people. One thing that I learnt from my journey into
the mind of Marc Bolan, is that there is little point
in writing anything if nobody reads it, as there is no
point in making music if no one listens. This is true
of all art forms, so I guess that if you take on the role
you have to follow through.
Writing
the biography section was particularly difficult. I seem
to have had so much life and did not want to dwell too
much on personal matters, although some are obviously
very relevant…I’ll save all the juicy bits
for my own full-on biography…
Delving
back into my roots was an emotional process, and each
photograph spurned further memories that awoke awareness’s
of myself that I had lost. We all readily lose ourselves
in life, sealing ourselves in modern cells of the present
and forget the things that have made us what we are.
Sometimes
we need to walk outside in the rain and feel the wind
on our faces in order to keep in touch with life. Looking
back at yourself is an extremely cleansing process, provided
one is prepared to do so honestly and objectively. We
can all wear masks and make-up to front the outside world,
but there are no masks within our own minds, no disguises
that we can hide behind; we should be brave enough to
look at ourselves naked, ‘in the raw’! If
we are not, then we will never understand our blemishes
and not know where to apply the make-up.
So
here I am…feeling a little naked and exposed.
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